it's bn a while i havent post anythg...not dat i hv nothg to write on bt just couldnt mke it...
i've bn thru a lot lately...not dat everythg turned out ugly & depressing bt somehow d dpressg part was too much to handle or mayb i shud just use d word "is" instead of "was" sigh~~
1st im a bit stress bout finding job coz my degree result nt as good as diploma result, my resume sucks, im suck at english especially when it comes to interview thingy, and some on9 applications suck too!!
2nd my cat, buaru just had a surgery to take out some "busung air" in her stomach...she's nt really in a gd shape bt i can see that she's healing...bt it's quite stressful to feed her with pills and clean up d cage...sigh~~ to make it worse, another cat, putih having flu and he's losing appetite...ya allah risaunye aku dgn diorg ni :-(
3rd he's getting worse and honestly im worried bout him...yes he did hurt my feelings bt my heart couldnt hate any longer to someone like him who used to b so nice to me when we were together...i tried make him understand bt it looks like i failed...i didnt pick up his calls, didnt reply his msg just 2 let him move on but it just didnt work well and for now im screwed since he tried to show dat he's changed and he's better than my darl...
4th i dun get it why guys love being a jerk bt then come crawlg to mke amend and force girls to give forgiveness...kan sng if dr awl u guys just treat ur gf nicely! is it bcoz they are too dumb to understand gf tgh kecik ati ke...mrh ke...merajuk ke...ke sbenanye diorg tau bt then chose to stay calm & do nothg due to EGO??
5th ke...aku yg slh??? mayb i've bn a pushy bitch...
Monday, December 21, 2009
Thursday, December 10, 2009
damn it! i knew there's smthg wrong!
im a mess
im a mess
im a mess
im stupid
im an idiot
damn it i screwed up everythg!!!!! there's no point i worked so hard to maintain some good cg for d past 5 years since pt 1 dip if today i end up with fucking low class cg and now im back to square one!
damn it! i wish i could turn back wut has hapend dat day...i kno shud've bersyukur coz i didnt failed MAF640 but part of me i feel disappointed with myself...haih~~~
im a mess
im a mess
im stupid
im an idiot
damn it i screwed up everythg!!!!! there's no point i worked so hard to maintain some good cg for d past 5 years since pt 1 dip if today i end up with fucking low class cg and now im back to square one!
damn it! i wish i could turn back wut has hapend dat day...i kno shud've bersyukur coz i didnt failed MAF640 but part of me i feel disappointed with myself...haih~~~
Friday, December 4, 2009
4 days 3 nights 24/7 with "them", we were so happy!
DAY 1
-after breakfast kt umah aku, kteorg be5 (aku, along, hihie, shima & farid) gerak dr BJ str8 away to Penang. well of course la we all benti kat few R&R tuk mkn, solat & "membuang"
-around 5pm smpai ke 'resort' (identiti dirahsiakan) we all lepak2 dgn host...tour d 'resort'...mkn...mandi2...then
-memule sekali aktvt kteorg, g pesta pulau pinang...usya brg2....plg best g fun fair die!
-1st kteorg main bumper car! aku & shima, farid & along, hihie & mat....mmg best! extreme gile kteorg main...smpaikan ade bbrp bdk pon naik gile sbb tgk kteorg main dgn gile nye...hehehe...benefits yg kteorg dpt 1st PUAS! 2nd sakit punggung!
-2nd kteorg main yg lagik thrill...tp aku lupe ape name menatang tuh! menjerit x hengat...smpai aku & shima ilang suara!
-puas memain & amik gmbar, we all gerak g mkn kat Padang Kota...after mkn2, aku telah wat smthg yg sgt memalukan diri smpai benda tu jd bahan spjg trip kteorg ni~~ pas mkn, along & farid g toilet while aku mat hihie along & shima 2gu kat tepi jln...then aku dgr bunyik enjin keta...aku tgk dlm keta xde org...aku cam pelik ar btul ke ade org tingalkn keta kt tepi jln x tutup enjin...aku pon membongkok ar sket kt enjin keta tuh...tried to dgr betul2 whether enjin idup ke x...japg mat hihie shima leh bantai gelak cam org gile then diorg belah dr c2...xnk duk dkt dgn aku...nk tau nape? 1st sbb dlm keta tu ade org! (aku pn pelik apesal mse aku tgk, xde org!) 2nd org dlm keta tu da gelak kan aku...3rd diorg kate aku betul2 bxz body smpaikan benda camtu pon nk nyibuk! owh tidak...aku telah memalukan diriku!
-owh and then we all g beli char kuey teow baeeekkkk punya!
DAY 2
-we all g tmn burung tp sbb mahal sgt; RM15! not worth it tuk tgk burung2! so we all went to bukit bendera....smbil 2gu train, we all g la wat pape yg patut...solat, minum, amik gambar & merapu...terlampau byk benda yg we all merapu smpai aku x larat nk type seketul2 kt blog neyh! naik bkt bendera agk sengsara sbb ramai org...x convenient la train tuh...tp jln2 kt ats tu best gak ar...sejuk...kteorg amik gambar, wat tattoo pki inai (aku je), amik gambar ular (aku je xde) hahaha
-mlm tu we all BBQ kat tepi pantai...anyway special thanx 2 abg am, abg zam, & pakcik atan...these 3 ppl ni frm persatuan nelayan...diorg bg kteorg space tuk bbq kat area diorg...even better they all bg few sate & udang kt kteorg...bg meja...tlg bakar...haih mcm2 diorg tlg! thanx ya~~~
-after bbq, we all g night market meng'usya' brg2 smpai la kul 1 kut
-late night activity? we all tgk movie~~~~
DAY 3
-1st thing to do was g amik hafiz kt umah atuk die...we all g beli lunch then str8 away to kebun bunga...nk naik tmpt tuh sgt mencabar sbb byk beruk! sib bek la farid mat & hafiz ade...rse selamat sket...plus ade gak org2 lain so we all jln ramai2...puas ati ar jln jejauh sbb kat tmpt tu best sgt...air sungai die bersih...sejuk...erm puas!!! ha...nk tau x...on d way nk trun frm tmpt tuh...ade la crew from al-jazeera interview kteorg..damn it aku malu gile time tuh...for d 1st time aku rse mcm aku btul2 clueless ape yg aku plan for 2010! selame ni aku rse yg aku nk wat acca tp maybe tu aku just ckp sbb d thing is selagi x dpt result last exam, aku x determine psl future...damn it! malu nye time tu! hopefully diorg delete je scene aku tuh....malu aku klu 1 dunia tgk muke aku yg x confident...clueless...xtau nk ckp ape...
-late eveng kteorg g jln2 usya brg2 kt penang street...then we all dinner kat erm ape ek name area tu tp name kedai tuh ismail ikan bakar & din tomyam...well mcm terbalik tp x kesah la...yg penting mknan kt c2 SEDAP utk di makan oleh 7 org bdk yg lapar! erm...budak ke~~~
-after dinner we went to nasi kandar beratur tuk tapau mknan!
-again late night activity; tgk movie~~~
DAY 4
-bgn pagi trus bersiap2...kul 12 we all gerak...around 5.30 smpai umah...and for now...aku da rindu kat diorg~~~
-asik teringat time2 merapu...time 2 menyanyi smpai ujan...time mkn...sume2 la
p/s: kengkawan we shud do this again....i had a wonderful time with u guys... ;-)
-after breakfast kt umah aku, kteorg be5 (aku, along, hihie, shima & farid) gerak dr BJ str8 away to Penang. well of course la we all benti kat few R&R tuk mkn, solat & "membuang"
-around 5pm smpai ke 'resort' (identiti dirahsiakan) we all lepak2 dgn host...tour d 'resort'...mkn...mandi2...then
-memule sekali aktvt kteorg, g pesta pulau pinang...usya brg2....plg best g fun fair die!
-1st kteorg main bumper car! aku & shima, farid & along, hihie & mat....mmg best! extreme gile kteorg main...smpaikan ade bbrp bdk pon naik gile sbb tgk kteorg main dgn gile nye...hehehe...benefits yg kteorg dpt 1st PUAS! 2nd sakit punggung!
-2nd kteorg main yg lagik thrill...tp aku lupe ape name menatang tuh! menjerit x hengat...smpai aku & shima ilang suara!
-puas memain & amik gmbar, we all gerak g mkn kat Padang Kota...after mkn2, aku telah wat smthg yg sgt memalukan diri smpai benda tu jd bahan spjg trip kteorg ni~~ pas mkn, along & farid g toilet while aku mat hihie along & shima 2gu kat tepi jln...then aku dgr bunyik enjin keta...aku tgk dlm keta xde org...aku cam pelik ar btul ke ade org tingalkn keta kt tepi jln x tutup enjin...aku pon membongkok ar sket kt enjin keta tuh...tried to dgr betul2 whether enjin idup ke x...japg mat hihie shima leh bantai gelak cam org gile then diorg belah dr c2...xnk duk dkt dgn aku...nk tau nape? 1st sbb dlm keta tu ade org! (aku pn pelik apesal mse aku tgk, xde org!) 2nd org dlm keta tu da gelak kan aku...3rd diorg kate aku betul2 bxz body smpaikan benda camtu pon nk nyibuk! owh tidak...aku telah memalukan diriku!
-owh and then we all g beli char kuey teow baeeekkkk punya!
DAY 2
-we all g tmn burung tp sbb mahal sgt; RM15! not worth it tuk tgk burung2! so we all went to bukit bendera....smbil 2gu train, we all g la wat pape yg patut...solat, minum, amik gambar & merapu...terlampau byk benda yg we all merapu smpai aku x larat nk type seketul2 kt blog neyh! naik bkt bendera agk sengsara sbb ramai org...x convenient la train tuh...tp jln2 kt ats tu best gak ar...sejuk...kteorg amik gambar, wat tattoo pki inai (aku je), amik gambar ular (aku je xde) hahaha
-mlm tu we all BBQ kat tepi pantai...anyway special thanx 2 abg am, abg zam, & pakcik atan...these 3 ppl ni frm persatuan nelayan...diorg bg kteorg space tuk bbq kat area diorg...even better they all bg few sate & udang kt kteorg...bg meja...tlg bakar...haih mcm2 diorg tlg! thanx ya~~~
-after bbq, we all g night market meng'usya' brg2 smpai la kul 1 kut
-late night activity? we all tgk movie~~~~
DAY 3
-1st thing to do was g amik hafiz kt umah atuk die...we all g beli lunch then str8 away to kebun bunga...nk naik tmpt tuh sgt mencabar sbb byk beruk! sib bek la farid mat & hafiz ade...rse selamat sket...plus ade gak org2 lain so we all jln ramai2...puas ati ar jln jejauh sbb kat tmpt tu best sgt...air sungai die bersih...sejuk...erm puas!!! ha...nk tau x...on d way nk trun frm tmpt tuh...ade la crew from al-jazeera interview kteorg..damn it aku malu gile time tuh...for d 1st time aku rse mcm aku btul2 clueless ape yg aku plan for 2010! selame ni aku rse yg aku nk wat acca tp maybe tu aku just ckp sbb d thing is selagi x dpt result last exam, aku x determine psl future...damn it! malu nye time tu! hopefully diorg delete je scene aku tuh....malu aku klu 1 dunia tgk muke aku yg x confident...clueless...xtau nk ckp ape...
-late eveng kteorg g jln2 usya brg2 kt penang street...then we all dinner kat erm ape ek name area tu tp name kedai tuh ismail ikan bakar & din tomyam...well mcm terbalik tp x kesah la...yg penting mknan kt c2 SEDAP utk di makan oleh 7 org bdk yg lapar! erm...budak ke~~~
-after dinner we went to nasi kandar beratur tuk tapau mknan!
-again late night activity; tgk movie~~~
DAY 4
-bgn pagi trus bersiap2...kul 12 we all gerak...around 5.30 smpai umah...and for now...aku da rindu kat diorg~~~
-asik teringat time2 merapu...time 2 menyanyi smpai ujan...time mkn...sume2 la
p/s: kengkawan we shud do this again....i had a wonderful time with u guys... ;-)
Thursday, November 26, 2009
"u can never change, dear" said the .........
some people said dat i'll never b able to change frm what i believe i used to be simply bcoz those people believe that human nature; people cant change their true colors! is it??? i asked myself many time tonight and it's kinda spoil my mood!
how can they be so sure to hold that kinda thoughts?? i do believe that people change....people changed! if not, my former besfrens are still with me...right? as we grow up, we will change the way we talk, speak, and think...right? when we get increment in salary, we change our lifestyle...right? wut else?
i wont elaborate wut things that we argued about coz it's kinda personal and im not ready to talk about this with any1 else...im so not in d mood right now...maybe i'll come back to update about this shit after few days...or maybe 2moro...i dunno for sure...
how can they be so sure to hold that kinda thoughts?? i do believe that people change....people changed! if not, my former besfrens are still with me...right? as we grow up, we will change the way we talk, speak, and think...right? when we get increment in salary, we change our lifestyle...right? wut else?
i wont elaborate wut things that we argued about coz it's kinda personal and im not ready to talk about this with any1 else...im so not in d mood right now...maybe i'll come back to update about this shit after few days...or maybe 2moro...i dunno for sure...
pisau cukur...d best ever malay film
have u watch d movie? it's incredibly awesome! for d 1st time kat malaysia ni ade film gedikss yg best! sgt3 best in fact! why?
1. coz of fazura! why do i like her? she's gorgeous....simple as that! with a full package she has, she can gedikss all d time and i bet most of people wont feel noxious bout her! she's a good actress in terms of her credibility, vry fluent in english, and for me i think she's just like sophia bush! ;-)
2. the storyline was easy and simple...but needs u to keep guessing who's d antonym character...serious babe...mmg best lawak2 bangang die! especially all d gediks part, the script, everythg seems perfect!
1. coz of fazura! why do i like her? she's gorgeous....simple as that! with a full package she has, she can gedikss all d time and i bet most of people wont feel noxious bout her! she's a good actress in terms of her credibility, vry fluent in english, and for me i think she's just like sophia bush! ;-)
2. the storyline was easy and simple...but needs u to keep guessing who's d antonym character...serious babe...mmg best lawak2 bangang die! especially all d gediks part, the script, everythg seems perfect!
Monday, November 23, 2009
what a girl wants? a guy like Clay or Nathan
just finished OTH s07e07, i figured why since beginning of this series (s07) Clay being such a.....u kno wut...he lost his beloved wife (Sara) so he afraid of letting people in and that's what made him so "CLAY" when it comes about sex and woman...the thing is i was touched with d fact that he truly madly deeply loves his late wife (Sara) even tho he is so hot, wealthy, "healthy" and hundred of hotties chasing after him! in a recent dev, he realizes that he starting kinda have feeling for Quinn but somehow he doesnt want to let go the memories between him & Sara and yes, he afraid of losing people he loves again....ooowwwhhhh im touched! how i wish there'll b a guy like that for me ;-)
Wut about Nathan? he's young, athletic, hot, wealthy and d best part is he's a family man! tho he carries many credits, he still d same Nathan that Haley loves! i was thinking what it takes to have a guy like that? i meant besides the "hotness", wut it takes to have a guy who still loving, caring, hot in a kindness manner, passion about ur relationship, loyal to u from d day 1 being together till u die?
just so u kno, i always attached to d movie or drama i love and that's why i wrote this...just to point out something ;-)
Wut about Nathan? he's young, athletic, hot, wealthy and d best part is he's a family man! tho he carries many credits, he still d same Nathan that Haley loves! i was thinking what it takes to have a guy like that? i meant besides the "hotness", wut it takes to have a guy who still loving, caring, hot in a kindness manner, passion about ur relationship, loyal to u from d day 1 being together till u die?
just so u kno, i always attached to d movie or drama i love and that's why i wrote this...just to point out something ;-)
Friday, November 20, 2009
lunch at hihie's
19th nov we all (aku, yani, farid, zam, along, shaz & kuza) gerak frm s.alam to bangi...even da mkn mee goreng kat umah, aku still rse excited nk mkn kat umah hihie coz sume mknan hihie yg msk sendiri!
erm macam2 ade...nasi arab...spageti...kek coklat...brownies...mcm2 ade! nyum nyum....mkn mmg x hengat...especially tang kek coklat yg hihie wat! haih da leh kawin ank dara sorg ni...mmg pakej! hahaha!
disebabkan we all melantak kow2 kat umah hihie...akibatnye sume melentok kat couch dpn tv...smpaikan posing amik gambar pon masing2 x bergerak ke tmpt lain...sume statik duk ats couch...haih bughuk perangai!
around 5pm we all gerak balik s.alam tp b4 dat had to say gd bye to hihie...damn it...i hate gd bye! rse sedey je mse peluk hihie...haih....we all mmg xjauh mane tp tuh ar mase tu agk ltd sbb masing2 byk hal nk wat...
along aka cik nora din, mambang, teratai hamid suggest kat we all starting january (after balik dr our penang road trip) jpe sebulan sekali...dis time xde la dpt ramai2...sesape yg nearby & free at dat time je la...tp for d nxt 5 years they all nk wat reunion yg besar2...all ACB's are invited...hope by dat time more >90% leh join...phm2 je la nti sure ade yg ter over bz...ter jauh sgt keje...sakit...mcm2 aral melintang :-)
owh tp kan there's smthg bothers me so bad...ie result exam! haih risau nye aku....bdk segamat kater lecturers segamat da abes marking paper and found out 40% failed FAR....then wut about MAF yg aku da wat slek time exam tuh??? haih~~~~
erm macam2 ade...nasi arab...spageti...kek coklat...brownies...mcm2 ade! nyum nyum....mkn mmg x hengat...especially tang kek coklat yg hihie wat! haih da leh kawin ank dara sorg ni...mmg pakej! hahaha!
disebabkan we all melantak kow2 kat umah hihie...akibatnye sume melentok kat couch dpn tv...smpaikan posing amik gambar pon masing2 x bergerak ke tmpt lain...sume statik duk ats couch...haih bughuk perangai!
around 5pm we all gerak balik s.alam tp b4 dat had to say gd bye to hihie...damn it...i hate gd bye! rse sedey je mse peluk hihie...haih....we all mmg xjauh mane tp tuh ar mase tu agk ltd sbb masing2 byk hal nk wat...
along aka cik nora din, mambang, teratai hamid suggest kat we all starting january (after balik dr our penang road trip) jpe sebulan sekali...dis time xde la dpt ramai2...sesape yg nearby & free at dat time je la...tp for d nxt 5 years they all nk wat reunion yg besar2...all ACB's are invited...hope by dat time more >90% leh join...phm2 je la nti sure ade yg ter over bz...ter jauh sgt keje...sakit...mcm2 aral melintang :-)
owh tp kan there's smthg bothers me so bad...ie result exam! haih risau nye aku....bdk segamat kater lecturers segamat da abes marking paper and found out 40% failed FAR....then wut about MAF yg aku da wat slek time exam tuh??? haih~~~~
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