afraid of letting people in

what it takes to let people in?

my eyes love to "cuci mata" usya hot guys especially omputih....dunno why omputih...sometimes i wonder why not malay guys? well maybe in malaysia there is significant shortage of hot-malay guy actor...kut ade pon sape je? remy ishak....hans isaac....aaron aziz....tu je? whereas klu omputih we have james lafferty, chad michael murray, chace crawford etc....even the footballers are way hotter than the actors! frank lampard....john terry...torres...fabregas...van persie...gerrard...even ferdinand! ok that's not d point! wut im trying to say here is i do love to appreciate ciptaan Allah....beautiful things....handsome guys! well korang pun same gak kan?

but somehow normally i end up fall for the moderate guys....those who really play it cool...very gentle...funny...kind....and caring! in short, those who is hot in a kindness manner!

some frens said that "ko ni high taste"

well maybe u r right...maybe u r not...but i think i just wanna be careful...plus it's impossible for me to be so fussy & chosy since im not even beautiful

korang pnah pk ape views korg psl menda ni?

why u (or me) make it so hard to let people in?

like i said before...i just wanna be careful...im afraid of letting people in coz i dun wanna get hurt...last time it happened it hurt me so bad! wut else?

sometimes u have to consider about ur frens feelings....ur fren's gf/bf feelings....sometimes u know urself that u r not really a nice person so u cant let in someone who is very nice & charming coz u know u might end up take him for granted in future....

i wish i could write more for this part....just to share some facts...who knows this kind of thing might happen to you in future....

remember my previous post "me & my heart we got issues"?

sometimes (or most of d time) i dunno know what i do really want frm someone....i dunno whether it is permanent or temporary...after all 1 thing i realized is i always caught in d middle! my brain says "no i cant do that" but then my heart says "wut d heck? if u like him, just go for it"

70% im not certain with this 1 little issue but i'll try figure it out...